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Falling Down

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As I sit here and think about writing a post I have so many things going through my head. As I mentioned in my earlier post I have been feeling really down lately and still have no clue what to do. I get overwhelmed easily, get upset and or mad even more easily and wish I knew how to get control over my life.

I often wonder how does one even begin to be happy. I am not saying I'm not happy at times but am more often really unhappy and I have no idea why. I WANT to be happy, I really do. I don't even know what happened. I don't want to be the bitchy/negative one. I really don't know how keep my thoughts or comments to myself. I guess it is easier to put someone else down than actually look at myself. I hate that I am always saying the wrong thing and getting people mad at me or whatever. I really don't know how to just be happy, cheerful and just be liked for me..

After looking at notes and cards I gave Steve early in our relationship and wonder what happened to …

Lost

As I sit here at work I wonder where to start.....

I have been feeling really low lately and not too sure why. Well it could be MANY reasons.... Some I really do not want to get into right now because it will just make me end up crying and since I am at work I do not want to do that...

Not really sure what to do with certain aspects of my life...
I have blogged many times about certain issues and still am having the same problems and none have really gone away. I am at a loss for what to do and I really have no one to talk to about these issues... Not that I even know how to express what I am feeling anyway -- I guess I am just good at keeping it all inside and pushing it away until I am miserable...

Maybe I need to go to a counselor but I don’t even know where to start... I am so over feeling this way and have no idea where or how to start.... Not sure if my meds are not working or do I need a different one??? I have no idea....

I am just rambling at this point and really have n…